The last few days at my house have been a little warm......ok it's really been stifling! Our A/C has been going down the whole for a while now but it finally quit on Thursday. I mean you know it's bad with the dog and I are sitting int he car int he garage to get cooled off! Poor thing, he thought we were going for a ride but we just sat there. Oh well, thanks to the A/C company we are now in a cool house! WHoooooo hooooo! I can not take a shower and still feel clean when I get out. It's awesome.
On another note, it's been 14ish days since JCB left and I am just waiting and counting down the year til I get to sit on the couch and watch tv with his arms wrapped around me. It really is the little things in life you don't realize how much you love them until they are gone. I don't care if he wants to watch the stupidest show on earth, Top Gear, I'd sit right with him and love every second of it!
So I'm off to GA tomorrow to visit with my family and it's going to be great! We are heading to Six Flags this weekend and I'm going to do some shopping with my sis! I can't wait! It's been too long since we had girl time. Hopefully this weekend will help the time go by fast til I get to cross another week off my list!
Well, that's all for now. I'm off to take a shower in my air conditioned house! Oh I'm so excited!
HDB
Monday, July 26, 2010
Saturday, July 17, 2010
Life actually does go on
These last couple of days I feel as though I have been attached by the finger tips to my computer. I don't want to clean, go to the bathroom, shop, eat, ANYTHING for fear that if I get up from my computer I'll miss a message or an e-mail from JCB. This is not how the next year of my life is going to be, is it?! It's not yet even been a week and I realize that life does go on. While part of me is missing right now, I still have a life to live...things to do. For one I have a 45lb pup that has to have someone to play with or he goes crazy. I really can't complain about Jones though. I know in some of my previous posts I may have complained about him driving me crazy but since JCB has been gone he has been an angel! An absolute perfect animal! I know people say that dogs can sense when something is wrong with their masters, but since I had never really experienced it I guess I didn't think it was true. But these last couple of days have proved me wrong. Not only do I have the most perfect animal to take care of, I have an amazing friend that could only have been sent to be from up above. Emmie and I met when her husband and JCB were in class together. (the time JCB and I met) I met her at a formal in June 09. You know how it is these days, you meet someone, spend a little time together, and you automatically have to be facebook friends. 7 months later, while catching up on facebook we realized we actually live in the same state....the same city of the same state.......God's plan or what?! Neither of us knew anyone else here and while being a newly married woman in a new town is fun and exciting, friends are always needed and welcomed! We have clung to each other and it keeps us sane! Now I must say, puppies are good, and so are friends, but the one important person you must have in your life is family. I have the most amazing family in the whole world. Not only have they called to check on me at the best times, but my wonderful sister sent me a great little package. It was very unexpected. I guess you can call it a survival kit for a newly single army wife. Bubble bath, oreos, nail polish, dog bones to keep Jones occupied while I'm having a moment, and a beautiful picture frame with me and my love in it. Needless to say it was so thoughtful, it brought me to tears.
All that being said, yes, I am sad and yes, there are times I feel like falling to the ground and balling my eyes out.....but the fact of the matter is, Life does go on! There is nothing you can do about. You have to get up every day and keep moving. One of JCB's favorite movie quotes is from Nemo...."Just keep swimming, just keep swimming...." That's what I have to do, keep swimming. I know there is one of many people that can help me with that but the main one is Jesus....He is the only one that can really get me through the next year.
If you are a praying person reading this, I have a request. Please pray that I will remember that and turn to Him in everything! He is my strength and He can get me through.
This is the last photo we took together before he left!
That's all for now!
HDB
All that being said, yes, I am sad and yes, there are times I feel like falling to the ground and balling my eyes out.....but the fact of the matter is, Life does go on! There is nothing you can do about. You have to get up every day and keep moving. One of JCB's favorite movie quotes is from Nemo...."Just keep swimming, just keep swimming...." That's what I have to do, keep swimming. I know there is one of many people that can help me with that but the main one is Jesus....He is the only one that can really get me through the next year.
If you are a praying person reading this, I have a request. Please pray that I will remember that and turn to Him in everything! He is my strength and He can get me through.
This is the last photo we took together before he left!
That's all for now!
HDB
Wednesday, July 14, 2010
Single and married all at once
So it finally happened. JCB is gone, off to war, for a year. What am I supposed to do?! So far today is day 2 and this is what I've done.....
-Cry
-Sulk
-Watch TV
-Check Facebook a million times
-Trip to PetSmart for Jones
-One load of laundry(half way done)
That's about it. Is the next year of my life going to be this depressing? I sure hope not. I wouldn't even want to be my friend if I were like that. So this is what I intend to do about it.
-Going to my parents this weekend for a visit
-Bake some yummy Lemon Poppyseed Muffins
-Clean my entire house(leading up to deployment, I got really really lazy)
-Work part time
-Maybe finish my degree
Anyone have any other ideas?!
It just seems so weird right now. Kind of like JCB isn't gone, but at work. I can deal with that....until it gets about 7pm and then what? Most people come home from work by then. Not my husband though. He is gone. Gone to a foreign country to fight for our freedom. To protect us over here so we can go to the movies and not worry about anything. So we can go to the pool or the beach this weekend without having to look over our shoulder and wonder if a car bomb or something like that is going to go off and end our life. I'd have to say that is a wonderful feeling.....don't you agree?
So all I have to say is, my husband is AMAZING and I LOVE him with all my heart. My heart that is partially broken right now. But all I can do about it is pray that my heavenly father will look after him and keep him safe. Bring him back home to me in one piece. It's kind of amazing how easy it is to get into a routine when you have someone to take care of and live with as one, and how easily everything is turned upside down when that person leaves.
So for now, I pray. Pray that the love of my life will be safe and come home to me soon. And of course, I bake.....what else is a girl to do?
-HDB
-Cry
-Sulk
-Watch TV
-Check Facebook a million times
-Trip to PetSmart for Jones
-One load of laundry(half way done)
That's about it. Is the next year of my life going to be this depressing? I sure hope not. I wouldn't even want to be my friend if I were like that. So this is what I intend to do about it.
-Going to my parents this weekend for a visit
-Bake some yummy Lemon Poppyseed Muffins
-Clean my entire house(leading up to deployment, I got really really lazy)
-Work part time
-Maybe finish my degree
Anyone have any other ideas?!
It just seems so weird right now. Kind of like JCB isn't gone, but at work. I can deal with that....until it gets about 7pm and then what? Most people come home from work by then. Not my husband though. He is gone. Gone to a foreign country to fight for our freedom. To protect us over here so we can go to the movies and not worry about anything. So we can go to the pool or the beach this weekend without having to look over our shoulder and wonder if a car bomb or something like that is going to go off and end our life. I'd have to say that is a wonderful feeling.....don't you agree?
So all I have to say is, my husband is AMAZING and I LOVE him with all my heart. My heart that is partially broken right now. But all I can do about it is pray that my heavenly father will look after him and keep him safe. Bring him back home to me in one piece. It's kind of amazing how easy it is to get into a routine when you have someone to take care of and live with as one, and how easily everything is turned upside down when that person leaves.
So for now, I pray. Pray that the love of my life will be safe and come home to me soon. And of course, I bake.....what else is a girl to do?
-HDB
Monday, July 5, 2010
TuTtI mElOn
We have had a wonderful weekend. I do really like it when the army gives JCB a 4 day weekend! Yesterday for the 4th of July we went up to a quaint little town called Clayton NC, to hang out with some of JCB's old college friends and aside from the illegal fireworks from a couple of houses down, we had a blast. Since we moved to NC we haven't met too many people our age, nor have we met any people that are "our kind of people". We aren't the type to hang out all night at a club or sitting around gambling and drinking. We'd rather sit around and tell stories about each other or playing Uno or Wii....what is so wrong with that? So being able to sit around last night with people our age who were "our kind of people" was really really nice!
Today has been great too but for entirely different reasons. One of the most fun things for me is to just spend time with JCB. We started out our day by sleeping in since we didn't turn in until about 1. After that we decided to go on a bike ride....and anyone that might know me, knows that I love going on bike rides. This was especially good because I know JCB hates doing any kind of physical exercise unless he had to.......i.e. Army PT. Our bike ride was followed by Karate Kid.....ps...it was good. Our movie theater is in a new shopping center and we just found a new shop called Tutti Melon. Tutti Melon is a frozen yogurt/gelato shop. Let me just say.....OMG.......It is so good!!!!!! I had a mango/strawberry yogurt with chocolate chips, strawberries, peaches and Reeses pieces. WOW!!! AMAZING!
We have happy tummies and hearts filed with love for each other...I know it sounds cheesy but it's totally true. JCB deploys in a week and we are savoring every possible minute we have together. He is really the best thing that I have ever had!
On another note....our pup Jones has something to say.....please enjoy!
Until next time....HDB
Today has been great too but for entirely different reasons. One of the most fun things for me is to just spend time with JCB. We started out our day by sleeping in since we didn't turn in until about 1. After that we decided to go on a bike ride....and anyone that might know me, knows that I love going on bike rides. This was especially good because I know JCB hates doing any kind of physical exercise unless he had to.......i.e. Army PT. Our bike ride was followed by Karate Kid.....ps...it was good. Our movie theater is in a new shopping center and we just found a new shop called Tutti Melon. Tutti Melon is a frozen yogurt/gelato shop. Let me just say.....OMG.......It is so good!!!!!! I had a mango/strawberry yogurt with chocolate chips, strawberries, peaches and Reeses pieces. WOW!!! AMAZING!
We have happy tummies and hearts filed with love for each other...I know it sounds cheesy but it's totally true. JCB deploys in a week and we are savoring every possible minute we have together. He is really the best thing that I have ever had!
On another note....our pup Jones has something to say.....please enjoy!
Until next time....HDB
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