Oh how we take things for granted

The last few days at my house have been a little warm......ok it's really been stifling! Our A/C has been going down the whole for a while now but it finally quit on Thursday. I mean you know it's bad with the dog and I are sitting int he car int he garage to get cooled off! Poor thing, he thought we were going for a ride but we just sat there. Oh well, thanks to the A/C company we are now in a cool house! WHoooooo hooooo! I can not take a shower and still feel clean when I get out. It's awesome.

On another note, it's been 14ish days since JCB left and I am just waiting and counting down the year til I get to sit on the couch and watch tv with his arms wrapped around me. It really is the little things in life you don't realize how much you love them until they are gone. I don't care if he wants to watch the stupidest show on earth, Top Gear, I'd sit right with him and love every second of it!

So I'm off to GA tomorrow to visit with my family and it's going to be great! We are heading to Six Flags this weekend and I'm going to do some shopping with my sis! I can't wait! It's been too long since we had girl time. Hopefully this weekend will help the time go by fast til I get to cross another week off my list!

Well, that's all for now. I'm off to take a shower in my air conditioned house! Oh I'm so excited!

HDB

Life actually does go on

These last couple of days I feel as though I have been attached by the finger tips to my computer. I don't want to clean, go to the bathroom, shop, eat, ANYTHING for fear that if I get up from my computer I'll miss a message or an e-mail from JCB. This is not how the next year of my life is going to be, is it?! It's not yet even been a week and I realize that life does go on. While part of me is missing right now, I still have a life to live...things to do. For one I have a 45lb pup that has to have someone to play with or he goes crazy. I really can't complain about Jones though. I know in some of my previous posts I may have complained about him driving me crazy but since JCB has been gone he has been an angel! An absolute perfect animal! I know people say that dogs can sense when something is wrong with their masters, but since I had never really experienced it I guess I didn't think it was true. But these last couple of days have proved me wrong. Not only do I have the most perfect animal to take care of, I have an amazing friend that could only have been sent to be from up above. Emmie and I met when her husband and JCB were in class together. (the time JCB and I met) I met her at a formal in June 09. You know how it is these days, you meet someone, spend a little time together, and you automatically have to be facebook friends. 7 months later, while catching up on facebook we realized we actually live in the same state....the same city of the same state.......God's plan or what?! Neither of us knew anyone else here and while being a newly married woman in a new town is fun and exciting, friends are always needed and welcomed! We have clung to each other and it keeps us sane! Now I must say, puppies are good, and so are friends, but the one important person you must have in your life is family. I have the most amazing family in the whole world. Not only have they called to check on me at the best times, but my wonderful sister sent me a great little package. It was very unexpected. I guess you can call it a survival kit for a newly single army wife. Bubble bath, oreos, nail polish, dog bones to keep Jones occupied while I'm having a moment, and a beautiful picture frame with me and my love in it. Needless to say it was so thoughtful, it brought me to tears.

All that being said, yes, I am sad and yes, there are times I feel like falling to the ground and balling my eyes out.....but the fact of the matter is, Life does go on! There is nothing you can do about. You have to get up every day and keep moving. One of JCB's favorite movie quotes is from Nemo...."Just keep swimming, just keep swimming...." That's what I have to do, keep swimming. I know there is one of many people that can help me with that but the main one is Jesus....He is the only one that can really get me through the next year.

If you are a praying person reading this, I have a request. Please pray that I will remember that and turn to Him in everything! He is my strength and He can get me through.


This is the last photo we took together before he left!

That's all for now!
HDB

Single and married all at once

So it finally happened. JCB is gone, off to war, for a year. What am I supposed to do?! So far today is day 2 and this is what I've done.....

-Cry
-Sulk
-Watch TV
-Check Facebook a million times
-Trip to PetSmart for Jones
-One load of laundry(half way done)

That's about it. Is the next year of my life going to be this depressing? I sure hope not. I wouldn't even want to be my friend if I were like that. So this is what I intend to do about it.

-Going to my parents this weekend for a visit
-Bake some yummy Lemon Poppyseed Muffins
-Clean my entire house(leading up to deployment, I got really really lazy)
-Work part time
-Maybe finish my degree

Anyone have any other ideas?!

It just seems so weird right now. Kind of like JCB isn't gone, but at work. I can deal with that....until it gets about 7pm and then what? Most people come home from work by then. Not my husband though. He is gone. Gone to a foreign country to fight for our freedom. To protect us over here so we can go to the movies and not worry about anything. So we can go to the pool or the beach this weekend without having to look over our shoulder and wonder if a car bomb or something like that is going to go off and end our life. I'd have to say that is a wonderful feeling.....don't you agree?

So all I have to say is, my husband is AMAZING and I LOVE him with all my heart. My heart that is partially broken right now. But all I can do about it is pray that my heavenly father will look after him and keep him safe. Bring him back home to me in one piece. It's kind of amazing how easy it is to get into a routine when you have someone to take care of and live with as one, and how easily everything is turned upside down when that person leaves.

So for now, I pray. Pray that the love of my life will be safe and come home to me soon. And of course, I bake.....what else is a girl to do?



-HDB

TuTtI mElOn

We have had a wonderful weekend. I do really like it when the army gives JCB a 4 day weekend! Yesterday for the 4th of July we went up to a quaint little town called Clayton NC, to hang out with some of JCB's old college friends and aside from the illegal fireworks from a couple of houses down, we had a blast. Since we moved to NC we haven't met too many people our age, nor have we met any people that are "our kind of people". We aren't the type to hang out all night at a club or sitting around gambling and drinking. We'd rather sit around and tell stories about each other or playing Uno or Wii....what is so wrong with that? So being able to sit around last night with people our age who were "our kind of people" was really really nice!

Today has been great too but for entirely different reasons. One of the most fun things for me is to just spend time with JCB. We started out our day by sleeping in since we didn't turn in until about 1. After that we decided to go on a bike ride....and anyone that might know me, knows that I love going on bike rides. This was especially good because I know JCB hates doing any kind of physical exercise unless he had to.......i.e. Army PT. Our bike ride was followed by Karate Kid.....ps...it was good. Our movie theater is in a new shopping center and we just found a new shop called Tutti Melon. Tutti Melon is a frozen yogurt/gelato shop. Let me just say.....OMG.......It is so good!!!!!! I had a mango/strawberry yogurt with chocolate chips, strawberries, peaches and Reeses pieces. WOW!!! AMAZING!

We have happy tummies and hearts filed with love for each other...I know it sounds cheesy but it's totally true. JCB deploys in a week and we are savoring every possible minute we have together. He is really the best thing that I have ever had!

On another note....our pup Jones has something to say.....please enjoy!



Until next time....HDB

Back from Vacation

So we are finally back from vacation and boy did we have a great time! It was long and much needed but by the end of the two weeks, I was ready to be back at my house! I definitely missed it! So here is a rundown of our little vacation and what we were up to in Florida!

First we went to JCB's parents house in Jacksonville. We had a wedding to go to of one of the groomsmen in our wedding, and if you read my last blog, you know how that went. :-( After that, Janette, my sister in law, had many events planned for us. JCB and I went to the gun range and shot a ton of bullets....let's just say, I was AMAZING...here is the proof!





See the bulleyes?!?!?!?! Those were both with handguns. The first one was a 38 Revolver and the second a 9 mm Automatic. But I must say my favorite to shoot was the shot gun.....Here's a photo for ya!



So other than the gun range we went to the beach, ate a ton, and just hung out with his family since he will be leaving soon! It was all about my hubby and his family time.

After a week in Jax, we went to Panama City for a little quality time with just the two of us. We stayed at a little villa right on the beach and it was wonderful. We didn't do anything special just went to the pool and shopping and spent time with each other. It was truly something we both needed and it will be remembered for the next year while we are apart.

We met up with my family after that weekend and spent time going shopping (again), tanning, playing in the pool, going on the boat and see dolphins, and of course, my mother, sisters and I went to the spa......AMAZING!

Since being back we have been pretty lazy, other than JCB going to work and me going to the gym. Vacation sure does make you eat alot! We have less then two weeks together before he leaves, but tomorrow we will have been married for 6 months and it is such a wonderful thing! I love him so much more than the day I realized I loved him.

Ok, sorry about the mushy stuff.....off to the gym now. Until next time!

HDB

No title for today

We've been in Jacksonville for a couple of days now visiting with family and going to a freinds wedding. So far, so good!! My handsome hubby did such a good job at the wedding, then again, how could you mess up being an usher....I'm sure there are many ways, and with this particular wedding, there was!!! But all that is long forgotten. We had a wonderful time but both JCB and I were thinking about our wedding day and we were both a little sad that we won't ever get to do that again. :-( I'm mean seriously, what girl doesn't want to do thier wedding day all over again? Well, my sister for one, and I'm sure there are more. But I loved that whole day and all the fun memories I have from it. I have recently been considering what I'm going to be doing with my life. I mean, everyone knows I want to be a mother and that's about it, but what about after all my children are grown or what about before I even have kids?? Since mom and I have catered and organized a ton of weddings, I have been leaning toward getting a Wedding Planner Certificate. It only takes about 6 months and I can do it all online while JCB is deployed! That will at least keep me busy. Plus, like the wedding we went to this weekend, I'm sure there are tons of other brides out there that have no idea what they are doing and they have to rely on someone else who also has no idea what they are doing. So, in conclusion, should I become a wedding planner or not? That is the question!!!!

In other news, today JCB may be taking me to a gun range to shoot all kinds of guns! It's kinda crazy. You should see the kitchen table right now.....in fact, I'll take a picture and post it on my blog for you(because posting photos on the blog is really fun and now I know how to do it!) After the gun range, it's off to the beach with the sister in law Janette and her beau Ryan for some jet skiing....photos to come later!

Photo Time!!!


All the guns!


JCB and I after the wedding!




And of course our super cute pup.....JONES!!!!!!!!!

That's all for today! Hope you enjoyed the photos!
HDB

Kids again

Have you ever wished you could go back in time and be a kid again, or just ask like one for a day? No responsibilities, nothing to worry about.....just have fun? I must say it is nice to be able to do that every now and then! In fact, JCB and I have done this a little more than I'm sure we should. Last weekend the topic of forts came up and me being a girl, I really don't have much experience with them. I asked JCB if he knew how to build a good fort, because some day when we have kids he will have to help them. He said he knew how and I asked him if he would build one for us. Being the amazing husband that he is, he built me the coolest fort ever.....at least ever to me. We blew up the air mattress and watched movies and ate pizza two nights in a row. It was probably one of the funnest things I have done in a long time. Tonight was our second child-like day, including hot dogs, bubbles, sidewalk chalk, Uno, and drum sticks! It was a good thing I had been planning another kid night because JCB had a hard Monday at work. He loved being able to come home and not think about anything military the whole night. I myself had forgotten how much fun sidewalk chalk was. It was a little harder though this time around, since I had Jones sitting right on top of my drawings. Needless to say I had to dust off his newly cleaned butt from his bath today! Ugh! Here are some of the things I wrote on the sidewalk!







That one is my favorite!

Back in the adult world.....JCB and I leave this Friday for his 2 week block leave before deployment. I only have a month and a week left with my hubby before Uncle Sam gets him for a year. But I had some very encouraging words from a friend today that were definitely unintentional, and I know it will all be ok. I just need to rely more on God, because he is the One in control.....not me. I hate hearing that last part most of the time, but in this case, it's ok!

So, in closing, sorry it's been a while for the whole two people that read my blog, I'll get better I promise!

Til next time!
HDB